Closing the Closet: Testimonies of Deliverance from Homosexuality by Swan II Talbert W

Author:Swan II, Talbert W.
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Trumpet in Zion Publishing
Published: 2004-07-01T00:00:00+00:00

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The Devil’s Prostitute

By

Tim Gilbert

After struggling with Homosexuality for over 12 years I went through a barrage of pain and suffering. The son of a Pentecostal pastor, I left a failed marriage and the Church at the age of 24. Although I was a father of one daughter, I decided to live a completely gay lifestyle. This was a decision that caused my world to crumble.

The world wind gay lifestyle I lived lasted about twelve years. I lived as a gay man in both the clubs and in the Church. I dated many men in various positions, using them for money and sex, however, through it all, God still ministered to me in the midst of this confusion.

I was the Devil’s prostitute. My conservative family abandoned me because of my life style, which made it impossible for me to go home. Hurt and homeless, I began moved in with a young choir director, who was both active in the church and lived a gay lifestyle. Since I cared for no one but myself he was only another victim of my selfishness. I used him for a place to lay my head. People told me that I was attractive and I attempted to use that physical beauty to get what I wanted - I was the Devil’s prostitute. Always on the prowl, my goal was to devour men. I played on their insecurities and loneliness. When one relationship dissolved , I moved on to the next victim.

Atlanta is a haven for seducing spirits and It seemed that I had them all. I was lost, lonely, suicidal, and broken inside. Most people thought I was a person with no feelings, however, deep down I hated myself for how I treated most people. I had many seducing spirits. At one point I was so far away from church and believed that church people were selfrighteous and quick to judge others. I prayed for help to overcome my sins but it seemed hopeless.

I began to travel to New York City and date celebrities. For whatever reason I appealed to them. I was not feminine, played sports and worked out. Therefore I fit in well with heterosexuals. I was the Devil’s perfect prostitute, fitting in with the saved and unsaved. People often asked me where did I go to church as they perceived that there was something different about me. I was surprised that they could see it. All I could see was confusion and pain.

As I grew deeper into this thing, depression set in. I received an offer to move to California by an older gentlemen who was the CEO of a major computer firm, however, the Lord would not allow it to happen. I knew if I moved something bad would happen.

Three years into the homosexual lifestyle I was living in Alpharetta, Georgia where many R&B celebrities live. I was in the midst of a relationship that would last about 5 years. Me and my partner had a beautiful house; expensive artwork, and fine cars, yet I was still unhappy.

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